I was in a really angsty mood for some unknown reason last night. After dinner at my parents’ house, I came home and napped for a bit. I had an anxiety dream that was particularly fucked up, and was probably part of the reason I felt so crabby.

I had this gumball machine and I was taking it around and photographing it in different locations and with different people as an art project. (Sort of similar to the idea of the lawn gnome in Amelie travelling around and sending back photos.) Apparently this was a fairly well-known fact and people were kind of watching out for me so they could get photographed with the gumball machine. I was driving this really old crappy car around the ShopKo parking lot (why it wasn’t my nice car I have no clue) and this woman on a bicycle was following me a little too closely. She had decided to do a documentary project of her own which consisted of tracking me down and hounding me, and photographing me photographing people with the gumball machine. She was really persistent and wouldn’t leave me alone, and suddenly she became super competitive. Just then she turned into this really hot chick and she challenged me to a lifting contest. Using only one arm and a leg, we each had to lift another hot girl in the air. She was smiling and laughing, (and my god she was so tan and thin) and she was beating me without breaking a sweat. Rather than waiting for the scenario to play out (and me ultimately losing) I jarred myself awake, sweaty and anxious and crabby.

I spent a good chunk of time packaging up items from eBay sales and then I watched the new episode of Six Feet Under. I then spent the next several hours being really rude and crabby to people online, then apologizing. I just felt like testing people’s patience, and I knew I was being testy and angsty. Guh. I absolutely HATE it when I get like that. And I didn’t want to go to sleep so I was just getting more angsty. Arg. I’m feeling a bit better today but some of the frustration is still hanging around because I’m super tired. A nap should hopefully fix that.