There just are no words anymore. It drives me insane that I can’t express just what I so desperately want to convey to you, but there comes a point where the use of language meets its limit. Because language and communication comes so naturally to me this confuses and frustrates my mind, because it is so accustomed to being able to choose just the right words for any occasion. Here they fall short.
How unfathomable to think we’ve made it that far in such a short amount of time. But it really wasn’t that short, was it? I’ve been searching for you my whole life. Everything I find most attractive in this world seems to draw my attention in your direction, and that’s been happening since before I can remember, before I realized it, and long before I knew you. You know I believe that everything happens for a reason and it happens when it’s meant to. Fate, destiny, whatever you wish to call it, is a force stronger than any other, and cannot be denied no matter how one tries.
Our love is not meant to be explained to other people, for they are likely not to understand. It’s okay for us to not understand it ourselves, as love is not logical, and human emotions go beyond what our brains are capable of comprehending in full capacity. What matters is that this element of wonder remains a constant; that we accept that one day it may fade to a certain degree as we get to know each other more intimately, but it will never disappear completely.
Love is immeasurable. I’ve already exceeded what I expected my potential to be many times over. How extraordinary it is to actually feel my love for you grow exponentially during a conversation, how one sentence can make me love you so much more than just the moment before, and how seeing you mirror the sentiment sends it skyrocketing. You are an amazing person to not only accept the wealth of love and passion within me, but embrace it with open arms and reflect it back to me. I am wholly grateful for that, as one of my greatest fears has always been the idea of being alone because there would be no one who could handle my overwhelming passion. You have proven that there are actually extraordinary people out there who not only can handle it, but encourage its expression in full force. Being able to love you the way I do, so freely, is indeed a gift.
What others may see as sappy, melodramatic, or ridiculous in my words is simply my inability to properly convey the way I truly feel within the restrictions of language. Using overzealous adverbs and cliched phrases makes me feel a trifle embarrassed and frustrated at times, but falling short with words only increases my desire to show you my feelings through other means of communication.
If there were a better way to say the following, I would do so, but in the absence of the right words, I’ll just say this: I love you with all my heart.
