Archive for January 15th, 2004

One Day Left

I’m Hearing: Nothing

Well, Rosey wanted me to do that high school survey thing that’s posted in the entry below…I figured it was long enough to warrant its own space. God, I really really really hated high school. It was one of the worst periods of my life. Meeting my writing teacher was the only good thing that came out of high school because that alone has shaped me into who I am now more than anything else. It was because of her that I met Jonathan (when I helped teach the summer creative writing class) and because of Jon that I met Adam (my first boyfriend and first love) and because of Adam that I stayed in Oshkosh and because of Jon that I got so involved in computers…and it all stems from that. Taking that job was the best decision I could have made.

So yeah…I really don’t want to think about high school any more than I have to. Not fond memories in general.

I was feeling rather low this morning as I woke up. Last night I hung out with TR, Jeff, Becky and Andy. We had some beer and watched Old School and The Shining…didn’t get as much out of it since I was two sheets to the wind, so I’ll have to watch it again when I’m in a better frame of mind.

But I’m starting to get really upset about not having a job. I have one day left at my current job and then I’m unemployed. MEH! My boss took my coworker and I out for lunch today, which was really nice. I’m going to miss this so much ;_;

I’m really annoyed at Dreamweaver MX 2004 for OSX. It has some major fricken issues that cause it to crash anywhere from 1 to 5 times a day (on average)…just doing regular stuff. Dreamweaver MX was just as bad, but with 2k4, they’ve added more features that make it worse. Augh. It’s slow as molasses for some odd reason…like, you start typing a sentence, and for the next minute you watch the letters appear on the screen character by character. It’s ridiculous because this machine has a 1GHz processor and a gig of ram in it…there is no reason this should be running so slowly and inefficiently. I don’t understand why we don’t use PCs at work for web design, but I guess it’s just because all the people here are MacPeople(tm). The odd thing is…this program works flawlessly…and fast on my PC…I don’t get it!!! One day left of this situation…I’ll be glad not to have to deal with the DWMX Mac issues but I’ll miss the jorb. :-(

My roommate Alisha got a dog from the Humane Society this week. His name is Spirit, and he’s a black lab mix, about a year old. Such a sweet and loving dog…I should take some pix. Speaking of pix, before he came, I crawled into his kennel because I knew I’d be the only one who could fit in there…it was fun but I was sitting on my wallet the whole time so that was a bit painful. XD

Hrm…Brian, Will, and I met with the SBDC on Monday and got a packet of information, which was really helpful. It seems that we’ll only have to fill out about 3 forms to be a legal business…so that rox. I’ll have plenty of time to look that stuff over starting next week when I don’t have to be anywhere during the weekdays. :\ I guess that’s a blessing and a curse. I’ll be getting a lot of sleep hopefully, but I’ll try to make the most of the opportunity I’ve been given. Perhaps I’ll be able to come up with a solid webpage design by the end of next week (not sure about the logo though…that may take longer depending on how motivated I am.) I’m really going to try to be productive instead of lounging around looking at things in my room, wondering what to do. I do that way too often…I’ll just sit and stare, trying to decide what I’m motivated enough to do, knowing I have a million projects to choose from, and just wasting time by not choosing something. Usually when that happens I just stare at my DVD rack, thinking that picking a movie out might give me something to keep my mind occupied. Usually doesn’t work though, and I just end up taking a nap or plain going to bed.

I’ve been playing The Hobbit the last few days, which has been fun. It’s a typical platformer/rpg type of game, like Ratchet and Clank. Pretty cute, rather fun, not terribly difficult. I tried playing The Fellowship of the Ring but the Black Riders kept finding me so I got frustrated and moved on.

And after about a 6 month absence, David is back online again. It’s so nice to have him back…<clings> And I started talking to this guy JP on IRC, who is a fun dude to talk to because he’s also a web designer and gaming geek. This morning Phil, Rosey, and Qiang were recording their voices and uploading samples so we could hear them talking…which was awesome. I love hearing non-American accents, especially when they’re as cute as Rosey’s…or as seksi as Phil’s. :3

Thursday, January 15, 2004, 10:33 pm | Comments |

A High School Survey

I’m Hearing: Mushroomhead songs in my mind

1. nickname in high school?
I never had nicknames by friends…or even by people who hated me…I dished plenty out but never had one myself.

2. sport you were into?
watching football, I suppose

3. had a circle of friends? how many were you?
One really good friend, Sarah, and 3 or 4 other people I spent time with on occasion.

4. best subject?
Art for sure…English and Creative Writing were next best.

5. worst subject?
Social Studies. I always hated anything dealing with sociology or history…I sucked terribly and never had the slightest interest.

6. a teacher you owe life lessons to?
Mrs. W…she was the writing teacher who gave me the opportunity to help teach creative writing and thus set me up for the course of my life…from that I met Jonathan and thus began a path that has led me to where I am now.

7. a teacher you wanna kick in the ass?
My art teacher…he was such a bastard to me and so many of my classmates, dishing out horribly low grades for art projects.

describe in one word…

8. freshman year:
overwhelming

9. sophomore year:
driving [learning to]

10. junior year:
abandoned

11.senior year:
love

12. your best friend was?
Sarah

13. your worst friend was?
turned out to be more than one bitch in the bunch…. :\

14. cafeteria food sucked?
Never really knew, I brought a bag lunch with me through most of it, or ate out at fast food places

15. most hilarious school rule?
They were so nazi-like in taking attendance that if you were more than 5 min late, you were marked absent and the school called your house at suppertime and left an automated message saying "Your student missed one or more classes today." So the next day you had to go to the attendance office and get the mistake taken care of…annoying as shit.

16. wore uniforms?
Not officially, but if you didn’t wear the trendiest of clothes, you stood out, so I suppose that is a uniform of sorts.

17. how was the prom?
It was…..a prom….I didn’t want to go at all, so I can tell you it wasn’t the highlight of my existence.

18. who was prom king and queen?
I think it was Adam and Diana that year…she was really nice and lent me her homecoming dress for prom (which I had dry-cleaned and ruined ^^;;;;;;;;;)

19. any achievements?
Always had some type of academic recognition…graduated with highest honors, national honor society, etc. Didn’t really try for that though…was just something that happened because I worked hard.

20. were you popular?
More like antipopular. I didn’t fit in anywhere.

21. best song that reminds you of high school?
Semi-charmed Life by Third Eye Blind

22. unforgettable high school crush?
Way too many….most notably Adam and Jeremiah.

23. most embarrassing moment?
Asking this guy Jim out in a letter then having him turn me down in the middle of the hallway in front of lots of people.

24. memory you’d like to forget about high school?
In junior year when this group of girls I used to hang out with basically abandoned me after I defended a friend who was coming out of the closet. I got a long letter describing all the things they hated about me and why I was too depressing to hang out with. It was the loneliest time of my entire life because I found out that even my closest friend had been part of that. I was, at that point, completely alone. I didn’t eat for a week. I am never ever ever going to forget what that was like.

25. best memory?
Being with Adam…he was my first love.

26. any regrets?
The things I regret are things I had no control over so I guess that just means I wish things had been different.

27. would you like your "future child" to attend your high school?
Abso-fucking-lutely NOT. First off I am not going to have children, secondly, I don’t want anyone I care about to have to deal with that kind of shit.

28. were the bathrooms clean?
For the most part, I guess. They weren’t filthy. Then again, they were girls’ bathrooms, so…yeah.

29. how were the lunch ladies?
Beats the hell out of me, never knew them.

30. lyrics would best describe your high school life:
hmmmmmm….anything sad and depressing and lonely and desperate and love-starved……

Thursday, January 15, 2004, 03:50 pm | Comments |