I’m Hearing: Incubus - Nice to Know You

Yesterday was torture for me. >_< My mom wrote me an email to tell me that a package had arrived from Australia…so I had to sit there at work for the rest of the day knowing it was waiting for me. :o

Turned out to be The Gathering’s if_then_else CD from Ross (and Jules too, I later learned)! :-D :D I listened to it probably 10 times or so last night…my god, it’s fantastic. I’d never heard any of their music before so I didn’t really know what to expect…and I must say, it was a pleasant surprise. So thank you Ross, it was a very well-chosen gift. :-D Also, I don’t know if you knew this or not, but on the end of "Analog Park" there’s a section where a British-sounding guy is reading part of Alice in Wonderland. :-D How perfect is that?

So I had that on last night while I was playing Dark Cloud (which was muted). The two didn’t really mix but ehh, that’s okay…it just adds to the mess of odd contrasts that make up Anny.

Now. Today was something else entirely. As I have a habit of doing, I took a small and insignificant detail and blew it all out of proportion and got myself all worked up over nothing. So…it started with the fact that I needed to decide on a price for Femscape for the art show (it’s one of the things they asked for). Of course, the idea of selling work always gets me angsty, but this time I was under a deadline…of noon today. I had absolutely no idea what to put down for a price…I mean…judging the value and worth of art is such a subjective thing…*especially* for the artist (me) since I’m overly critical of my stuff as well as being uber attatched to it. Anyhow, it’s been about 6 months since I finished that piece and I’ve had some time to distance myself from it, so I don’t feel the same panic about selling it that I would have a couple months ago. I talked to some peeps on IRC about pricing, which really didn’t get me anywhere since everyone kept telling me "add the cost of materials to what you would be happy with" and similar things…which is good advice and all…but I don’t know what it’s worth to me! (Peet suggested thinking up a cost based on some type of electronic gadget I want to buy :-D) >_< I talked to my boss (who is also an artist) and we came up with the figure US$1200. I would be plenty happy with that and would be okay letting my piece go for that, but dealing with that got me angsty. I mean, really…what kind of a price would YOU put down for a piece done by an unknown artist in a small town? <shrugs>

I want to stress here that my piece is not necessarily being sold at that price, or at all. That’s just a figure they wanted so they could print up a catalog. In fact, the art in the show can’t be sold during the show, the transaction would have to occur later on. But anyhow…

In order to get photos for the catalog, they are having a professional photography studio take them. (for free!) The thing was…I didn’t know where this studio was. The address listed in the phone book was different than the address they sent along with the instructions so I got confused. Because I was already angsty over the price stuff, this just made my stomach start churning. I got all upset and started ranting like a loony.

Just my luck that Jules was online…he was able to get me calmed down and thinking rationally again…so I could see how idiotic I was acting. >_< He said something to me that I found very interesting: "it’s funny how you seem to get the most upset when you are peeking over the hill of something great" Hmm. Food for thought.

I called the photography place and confirmed that they had just moved this week to a new location, which is why it is so confusing. I took my painting down to the place (which only had a small sign that isn’t visible from the street) and it ended up not being a big deal at all of course. <inhales deeply>

So anyhow, I feel much better now…I know I get all silly sometimes about dumb stuff, and I know I can help it…I just have to make up my mind to push those thoughts aside. Make no mistake…I make no claims to understand myself…

So yeah, I’m pretty exhausted right now. I went to bed at like 12:30 last night, which is relatively early, but I was just wiped out all day and all I did was play Dark Cloud so there wasn’t a whole lot of stimulation to keep me awake. I’m still tired now…getting up this morning was just torturous. Oh well.

That’s really about all…my entry from yesterday highlighted the more important things that have happened recently.