I’m Hearing: Radiohead - Knives Out

Hnguh. I feel really icky this morning physically. For once, it’s my body that’s ailing rather than my psyche. I dunno which is worse…but guh. I don’t get sick very often but when I do it tends to hit pretty hard…usually after times of great stress, and usually on holidays. Well, all the ingredients for my typical sickness are there, so I wouldn’t be surprised if I wind up with a cold or flu over Christmas. :\ Sore, scratchy throat and upset stomach greeting me this morning…I may go home at noon if I don’t feel better by then.

Well, I spent last night kind of bumbling around my room…I was exhausted after work so I took a 2-hour nap (during which I dreamt I was in Japan and the lens on my digital camera broke!) then ordered cheesy bread for supper. After that, I pretty much just putzed around on my computer, downloading stuff…I tried to get some episodes of The Dead Zone but was only successful in getting one. But hey, one is better than none, so I watched it. I spent a good hour pondering the meaning of the lyrics of "Down in the Park" before I found a website that offered two possible explanations. I have versions of that song by Gary Numan, Marilyn Manson, and the Foo Fighters (I heard the FF version first, as it was on the first X-Files soundtrack) but I never knew what it was about. Well, at least now I have some possibilities to consider.

Also, my brother called at one point, so I got to talk to him for awhile. He’s heading down to Texas this week with the Badger football team because they’re in the Alamo Bowl this year and won’t be home for Christmas. That will be really weird because he’s the only one in our family who gets really excited about holidays, with Xmas of course being his favorite…who’s going to spread cheer this time around? It’s not gonna be me. :\

Hum hum hum…this sounds pretty depressing, ne? I wish it didn’t since I don’t really feel sad…it was actually a very welcomed relief to just do nothing in particular….it’s been sooooo long since I’ve done that, since I’ve allowed myself to do that…there were times when I could have taken it easy but chose not to for whatever reason I could think of at a particular moment. Maybe feeling sick this morning is my body’s cry for R & R…I had better listen to it or I could end up in a bad situation.

Ack. I want to paint. ;_; That seems to be the one thing I think about all day long…sigh.